Today I was on FaceBook and read a friends status: "Life can be tough but remember someone always has it tougher." This statement has really put things into perspective for me (tonight was not the first time I have seen it, but just brought it to the forefront of my mind).
For years and years I was miserable and felt sorry for myself. I hated alot of things about my life. I hated not having money for the basic necessities, I hated the embarrassment Charlie caused by his drinking, I hated looking the way I did because I just didn't care, I hated all the constant worrying and stress, and much much more. At times I felt that it just couldn't get any worse. BUT, I had my health, a great kid, a roof over our heads (though I think we went close to 2 years without making a mortgage payment), and family who helped us constantly. I know many had it worse than me, but I still was miserable......I felt hopeless. Today, things are much, much better. I have a job (YAY) and though it is only part time, it is bringing in some money. I took K. on her first 'real' vacation a few weeks ago.....I saved up for it and took her to Florida. We had beautiful weather and a great time. I am not stressed constantly about money....this is all a huge improvement from about 4 years back. I am much happier now....probably the happiest I have been in at least 7 or 8 years.
I am writing this because I feel as if I am slipping back into another funk (happens about two or three times a year) and am trying to keep in mind of where I was and where I am now. Sometimes I feel guilty for getting in a funk because I have lived through much, much worse.
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