After falling back into my usual holiday "funk" I have decided that I had better do something, and soon, or this will be a never ending cycle with me. First thing I did was deactivate my facebook account. It is a place where I spend entirely too much time. I plan on going back on, because I really love connecting with people, but for now, I am off. Already I am feeling better about things. I have put away alot of things that have been neglected for months, and cleaned out all my old emails....dating back to August 2010. Also trying to get into bed at a decent hour, start eating right again and start exercising.....all of which have been neglected for quite a while now.
Other things I plan to do is downsize.....alot!!! I plan on moving this summer and I really don't want to lug a bunch of crap I haven't used in years, with me. I can sell some and make some money on it....I just have to get it together.....
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Life is Good~for the most part!
Today I was on FaceBook and read a friends status: "Life can be tough but remember someone always has it tougher." This statement has really put things into perspective for me (tonight was not the first time I have seen it, but just brought it to the forefront of my mind).
For years and years I was miserable and felt sorry for myself. I hated alot of things about my life. I hated not having money for the basic necessities, I hated the embarrassment Charlie caused by his drinking, I hated looking the way I did because I just didn't care, I hated all the constant worrying and stress, and much much more. At times I felt that it just couldn't get any worse. BUT, I had my health, a great kid, a roof over our heads (though I think we went close to 2 years without making a mortgage payment), and family who helped us constantly. I know many had it worse than me, but I still was miserable......I felt hopeless. Today, things are much, much better. I have a job (YAY) and though it is only part time, it is bringing in some money. I took K. on her first 'real' vacation a few weeks ago.....I saved up for it and took her to Florida. We had beautiful weather and a great time. I am not stressed constantly about money....this is all a huge improvement from about 4 years back. I am much happier now....probably the happiest I have been in at least 7 or 8 years.
I am writing this because I feel as if I am slipping back into another funk (happens about two or three times a year) and am trying to keep in mind of where I was and where I am now. Sometimes I feel guilty for getting in a funk because I have lived through much, much worse.
For years and years I was miserable and felt sorry for myself. I hated alot of things about my life. I hated not having money for the basic necessities, I hated the embarrassment Charlie caused by his drinking, I hated looking the way I did because I just didn't care, I hated all the constant worrying and stress, and much much more. At times I felt that it just couldn't get any worse. BUT, I had my health, a great kid, a roof over our heads (though I think we went close to 2 years without making a mortgage payment), and family who helped us constantly. I know many had it worse than me, but I still was miserable......I felt hopeless. Today, things are much, much better. I have a job (YAY) and though it is only part time, it is bringing in some money. I took K. on her first 'real' vacation a few weeks ago.....I saved up for it and took her to Florida. We had beautiful weather and a great time. I am not stressed constantly about money....this is all a huge improvement from about 4 years back. I am much happier now....probably the happiest I have been in at least 7 or 8 years.
I am writing this because I feel as if I am slipping back into another funk (happens about two or three times a year) and am trying to keep in mind of where I was and where I am now. Sometimes I feel guilty for getting in a funk because I have lived through much, much worse.
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